Instead of complaining to God for unanswered prayers, why not thank Him for the unprayed answers.
Good Morning! :)
I am that kind of girl who will talk to you and cheer you up when I feel that you are down. You can see me laughing with all those crazy friends of mine because there’s something hilarious about something. You can always see me screaming with weird words that will make my friends laugh so hard. Then after some time, you will see me there, sitting on the corner, vision is so far, thoughts are deep that you can’t seem to dig. Suddenly I’ll go find some place where all I can hear is my own breathe, think about something, or someone. I will keep my lips sealed ‘cause it’s too tiring to speak, to laugh and to burst. Then after my senti moments, I’ll smile. It’s so funny how I can be those two at the same day, or hours at least. It’s cool to be with them, and to be alone.
college: where you skip class to study for the class
I have learned that if you are down, stay down. Don’t get back on your fucking feet until you are prepared to stand. Don’t get up until you have learned why you fell. Nine times out of ten, it is because you were weighing down on someone who could no longer hold you. You gave someone your power. You forgot about yourself. Let me tell you something - there is one person there for you. One person. It’s the same person that wipes your shit and feeds you and cleans up your vomit after a drunken night. It’s the same person who brushes your teeth and tends to your wounds and gets your crying ass out of the shower. The same one that tucks you into bed and cradles you in the night and fights off the darkness and embraces the light. It’s you. It’s always been you. Don’t get off that fucking ground because you see somebody you know or somebody you want to know, or - somebody you can rely on. Wipe your fucking face and get up for you. Because you can. Because it’s the least of what you owe yourself.
I needed someone to say this to me, so I said it to myself (via barbieandken)
Mapapagod ka na lang talagang magmakaawa para sa oras at atensyon na kailangan mo. Ganun man, kapag nainip ka at walang makausap, andito parin ako.
Things you should know before falling in love with me:
I am fragile. I’ve been hurt before. My heart was shattered like a broken glass. I bleed. I cried. I feel so dumb, I feel so numb. I debased myself. I have been neglected.
I am damaged. And I am not sure if I am already fixed. A part of me is still missing. Maybe I never really had my heart back ever since we’ve parted. But I am on the process of moving on. I am trying my hardest to move on from him. It’s just that he gave me so much to remember. I hope you understand if sometimes, you see me writing his name.
I am moody. Maybe because it’s a girl’s nature to be like this. Please bear with me if sometimes, I get irritated with the simplest thing. If sometimes, I cry because of insignificant things. Sorry. I hope you could understand why am I like this.
I will push you away. So that I will know if you will have the guts to stay with me no matter how hard I push you away. I would do crazy things to see if you’ll still love me in return.
I may eventually fall for you. Once I see that you’ve gave enough effort for me, I may fall. But please, catch me. Don’t let me fall once again. I don’t want to be broken once again. At this point, maybe I just recovered from the pain I have been enduring so please, take good care of me. I hope your love for me won’t change. Please don’t be like those other douchebags who gave full effort on the beginning but loses their interest once they already got the girl. Please don’t give up on me like what everyone did. Let me know that forever exists. Show to me that not all boys are the same. Take me to your paradise. Love me, and I will love you back. Hold my hand during those times that I need someone to be with. Okay? Okay.
What if I die tonight? My dreams will end. My dream of becoming someone will just stop. What about the future me? Will he or she disappear or will someone replace me? how about my future job, who will take it, will he or she be a better one than what I was suppose to be?
What if I die tonight? Will my future partner find someone else? Will he or she find a replacement or will he be single till death. Will he be alone because I died too soon or will he find a better one, someone better than what I was suppose to be?
What if I die tonight? Will my future children be born? Will they get a chance to walk in this mad and crazy world? Will they get a chance to run, walk, sleep, eat, laugh and live? Or maybe they will never exist because their mother or father died too soon.
What if I die tonight? Will someone miss me? Will someone even bother attend my funeral, will someone even dry over my coffin, will someone even offer me flowers, will someone even give me a proper funeral?
What if I die tonight? I will never worry about my future because I will never have a future. Tonight is my last night and tonight my life will end. I will never get the chance to be someone or be with someone. But at the bright side, If I die tonight. My problems will finally end.